Noah, The Imperfect Blogger with an Everchanging Fashion Sense & State of Mind

 

INTRODUCTION

Hello beautiful people! Good afternoon and I hope that your August has been lovely so far. Today, I wanted to come to you guys with some encouragement, relatability and overall “good convo”. So, I start college very soon and I am so excited. I am really excited to embark on this new journey. I know that with my improved mindset and self love practices, I will be sturdy and solid enough to become a truly independent individual. I worked super hard to make sure to tie any loose ends regarding college and I am so proud of myself. I know that my cautious nature will not allow me to evade any and every obstacle that comes on my path, but I have realized that an optimistic attitude can go a long way. Now, I catch myself when I think pessimistic thoughts, especially during the morning. Some of us are lucky enough to be cheery early birds, but I used to hate mornings. Now, I love them. Getting up early so that I can make breakfast, play music, create a plan for the day, catch up on some reading, make a blogpost, or even walk the dog. The beginning of our days are full of opportunity to take our lives by the hand and create something spectacular. I notice that we start to take our lives for granted by comparing ours to others. Comparison is the thief of joy. What is for someone else is NOT for YOU! Your entire being is full of so many complexities and layers that you could never compare yourself to someone else because only YOU can do what YOU do! That’s on PIRU lol. Seriously, do not compare yourself to anyone else. What you have is special and incomparable, so do not ever compare yourself to see if you measure up against models, rappers, designers, musicians, athletes or anyone that you perceive as “perfect”. They could NEVER live your life. They can never walk a mile in your shoes. So, don’t think for a second that your life doesn’t have the ability to change, grow or transform. As human beings, we are ever-changing, so if you do not like the way your life is going or is, change your outlook or your circumstances. When I began to look at my life as stagnant, I needed to change my perspective. I decided to think of my life as beautiful, and as I would repeat this, my life would appear beautiful. God gave us the power of life and death with our words, so we must be careful and considerate of how we talk about ourselves and others. That is why I try to be so unproblematic and considerate of others because I know that the words I spew have power behind them. But, I say all that to say, remember how powerful and significant you are. You have a purpose. You can do anything you set your mind. I cannot wait to start this new journey and I am so blessed and grateful to have people like you, who read the blog. I would love to share my future experiences with you all. I hope I could be somewhat an example or model for anyone reading. I am not perfect by any means, but I do know my privilege as an able-bodied, cisgender black man. I have confronted many of my demons head on and other ones just needed to be understood. In my younger years, I would feel that I didn’t measure up to people of society. I thought that my looks weren’t good enough. I thought I wasn’t smart enough. I didn’t think that I was athletic or masculine enough like other boys. But, with support of my mother and loved ones, I stopped comparing myself to others. I am a human being and I deal with insecurities, anxieties, fears and doubts. However, I am cognizant of the abilities I have to offer. It took a while, but I am so glad that I learned and recognized how beautiful, intelligent, driven, funny and creative I am. I know that if it all falls apart and the world turns against me, I have myself to depend on. I build myself up everytime I see myself in the mirror. I am currently trying to reverse the effects of low self-esteem and negative self-talk. Some days are harder than others, but it just gives me a reason to go harder for myself. I hope this doesn’t sound redundant, but I want you guys to be your biggest cheerleader. Celebrate all of your accomplishments. There is nothing too small to celebrate. There is a fine line between arrogance and confidence, but knowing what you have to offer is essential for your personal growth as an individual. I wanted to leave you guys with this. I once heard “Self-love is an action, not a noun”. It is very true. Self-love is almost like a muscle that constantly needs to be exercised and toned. This world can easily distract us from our positive qualities and focus on our negative qualities. However, we have to remind ourselves how awesome we are. Confidence is attractive because a person can see who loves themselves. I pray that you guys find love, success, happiness and a platform to create opportunities and open doors for the future generation. Your position in the world right now is so incredible. You have the ability to change the world. No matter age, race, gender identity, sexual orientation, etc.

CLOSING

Well guys, it has been so much fun chatting with you. I hope in some way or another, I was able to give you a smile on your face or maybe mental reassurance. It’s okay to not be perfect and make mistakes. I feel young people especially, we tend to be our worst critic. I just want you to know it will be okay and you are not a lost cause. We all have our stuff whether it be: breakups, feeling used or mistreated, isolation, not having a plan for our lives, troubles in school, low self-esteem, body issues, wanting to show our talent, parent’s divorce, sibling estrangement, sickness, mental illness, learning disabilities, accepting your sexuality or which gender you identify as, acts of violence towards a family member, or even dealing with the death of a loved one. These are all human experiences that shape us whether we would like to admit to it or not. It is okay to be going through it right now or to even express your joy with how your life is going. We all have been through the fire, but there’s a reason why God wants us to go through it and not away from it. He knows that in some way, it will create change in your life. Sometimes, we need a battery in our pack to cause us to create some type of change in our lives. I know for me that I prayed and prayed to really like myself and undo all of the hurt I had done to myself. It took so much time, but it was so worth it. I would not regret it for the world because it shaped me to be this Noah that I am today and I hope that I am an even better Noah tomorrow. But, I just wanted you to know I hear you. I see you. This bump in the road is just another story for your testimony. So don’t beat yourself up or go into the blame game or give up. Your story has too much significance for it to be thrown into a trash can. People need to see the struggle so that they can applaud the perseverance. People need to see you going through it because it shows them that they can make it through too. We got to help one another and check for each other. Life is too precious. According to the Crisis Text Line, “Every 28 seconds, someone attempts suicide”. Suicide prevention, HIV/AIDS prevention, safe sex, and the socioeconomic state of black and brown people are some topics that are very important to me. Angelica Ross, an actress on the Emmy-nominated show Pose, is a Buddhist. She talked about her faith and how they value the capacity of time and NOW. No Opportunity Wasted. So, whenever a friend or family member speaks negatively or ignorantly towards a certain topic, take that opportunity to educate and inform rather than ridicule and chastise. Take action and unpack toxic language and behaviors. Sorry I kept you so long love, but I am a Sagittarian man and I could talk about the moon and the stars forever, because I love to talk. I love to talk to people. I love people because I see the “God” in all of us. The love, the understanding, the compassion, the empathy, the strength, the sorrow, the pain, the anger, the triumph. I see it all and I love you all. I hope this day is one of the best days you have had in a LOOOONGG time! I love you. Keep on striving for greatness and positivity. Don’t cheat on your present with your past. Stay awesome!

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